a much needed rant

So this week has been going pretty roughly...

I passed out at CDC (what the heck) on Tuesday and was sent to the docotor's office with my mom to see if everything was alright. Apparently, I just had some sort of emotional/temporary claustrophobic/tiredness or stress breakdown... so everything's okay. Work is going as usual -- still earning minimum wage and doing night shifts. I'm off the rest of this week starting tonight, so that should be good for the whole tired and stressed out situation. I've got to finish all of my gov including the end of the unit with the finals by next Tuesday if I am going to go to Wash U, and I really got to get that Chemistry/Calculus/Lit work done before band camp starts. Oh, and Deegan and I are going to go check out the color guard practice tomorrow night which should be pretty fun and a good break from all this craziness. Hopefully, I'll make it through all of this, and I'm really glad I have this blog to rant about these issues.

I had a crazy craving for Zaxby's chicken fingers (haha, I know right?) this afternoon, so my mom took me there and we had dinner. It was soooo good! But, then she started talking to me about how I should be regretting taking band because it prevented me from taking a full 4 years, which apparently is what Harvard or what not is looking for, of foreign language. Which.. wasn't as good as the chicken; I would rather just eat in silence than discuss how bad band is. But honestly, I've delt with my parents and their anti-band opinions for 6 years. It's always been quit band, quit band, quit band. And this constant nagging that band is evil and I'm wasting my time and I should be more Asian and quit so I can take another math class like Deep is just getting on my nerves. I really don't think that I should give up something that I love and that I'm passionate about for a class that really just doesn't teach me anything (French). I know most colleges would like to see 3 or more years of a language, but I already have Chinese. Plus, it's not like I dropped French -- it just didn't fit in my schedule. Anyways, I thought this rant would come out more fluently, but I just got so jumbled up in fits of anger that my parents activity try to bash who I am that I can't really dictate my reasoning and feelings about this coherently. At least not right now...

Hm, okay. I think I'm feeling a little better about this week and about government. I'm going to start posting other things on my blog like interesting news articles that I find as opposed to just my deranged feelings. Or maybe cool recipes.. tips.. anything. We can all learn something useful once in a while.

--Emily