It's hard to keep up with a blog when school starts. It's even harder to keep up with other things.
For example. Isn't sad how the things we care about just seem to go away when academics become an issue? It seems like before school started, I was extremely pumped up for band. I couldn't wait for games to start and for us to be productive and get those big trophies at competitions. But since I've gotten loaded down with Calculus homework, Chemistry tests, and Lit essays, Band's become a second priority... and clarinet.. hasn't even made the list of top 5's.
How can I call something my passion when it isn't even on my top priorities list? I never intend to major in music. Maybe not even minor in it. But I know that I really do enjoy playing in an ensemble and conducting one. Band is supposed to be my escape from the stressful academic world, but even if this is the case, I should still take it on as a priority. Not just go through the motions but actually get into it even when I have 3 tests hanging over my head the next day. It's never been hard juggling school and band, so I find it really weird that I'm struggling with it this year. Anyways, if I just pick myself up from this ditch and start getting back into the highs of marching band, I'm sure things will stop looking so gloomy.
The 5 AP class thing is going better this week. I actually made an A on the Chem test that I thought I failed. The calculus quiz today was a joke. Physics is really fun. Lit was a little disappointing. I got back my summer reading essays, and they weren't marked quite as high as I thought I deserved.. but then I did make grammar mistakes and did not double space. See? Here's something else I'm having trouble with this year: Not being a grade whore. I'm trying not to worry so much about the numbers and just focus on doing the task at hand. I guess I should read my little "To Seniors" inspirational note again and get a priority check. It still hurts a little when things don't go just the way you expect them to. (Yeah, the only child in me is coming out.) So number one thing other than prioritizing: stop worrying about the wrong things.
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So I finally decided to read your blog. I'm really sorry I forgot to keep up with it. Jeez you write a lot... I actually haven't caught up with all the entries.. I'm saving some for later. Anyways, I understand about your priority regarding your music... things won't always go the way you want. That's life... but it's good that you're reflecting upon it and trying to make a change. Oh yeah, one thing I found out today... Cornell has marching band! ..just letting you know ;)
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