Frustrated (Unreasonably.)

--warning: approaching severe rant!--

I haven't been able to get online as much this summer (which, for one, is probably a really good thing!) because my dad has been on our only PC 24/7 for the past month. Why? He is trying to find a new job and learn a new program at the same time, another really awesome thing. But why do I feel so much... pent up frustration? It definitely isn't due to the lack of computer time for me (I hope =/). I've just been so ticked off because he is always on the computer... like he has so much to do and I am just sitting there bored to tears. Why am I so self-centered? My mom always said that I should do as much as I can to help my dad through this period of job hunting just like the way he helped me with my 10 college applications. Sure, I have on many occasions helped him edit a few pages of writing, but what else can I do?

I guess I am just really frustrated at coming home with everything a mess (dishes, living room, etc.) while my dad just sits there rotting in front of a computer. I don't even make sense anymore. What is wrong with me??? I can't even put how I feel into words.

Feels like I am about to implode.

=(