Deep Discussions

There was a point in my life when I thought about "getting an education" as related to numbers, GPAs, grades, letters... whatever you wish to call them. Although I am still not over that and still strive to make a 4.0 my first college semester, I believe I have started to go beyond the value of numbers. It's been a long fight.

Today in Calculus, a class that I would love to actually understand some day soon, we learned crazy stuff about differentiability, the chain rule, and continuity in 3 dimensional space---talk about complicated! But, truthfully, I think I find joy in the struggle. That somehow, staying up until 2am trying to comprehend a homework problem or understand a concept (even if it is agonizing at the time) feels extremely satisfying the next morning. Turning in those pages and pages of work that were the result of a week's worth of dedication feels absolutely amazing. And despite the crazy back-to-back schedules of Wednesdays, I am happy. (The mini-weekend on Wednesday nights are also a very big plus!)

After reading the series of poems for our Brit Lit class on Thursday that contrasted innocence and experience with respect to religion, I feel like learning is completely amazing. Just being able to tackle something as complicated as the question of why is there good and evil in the world in a simple poem blows my mind. And, really, can we acknowledge or recognize or even know good without evil????