Choices vs. Decisions

Looking through all my college stuff, I've realized that there can be many choices but only one decision.

I am having the hardest time making a decision right now. I still have 1 month, but so much is going on between now and graduation that I really do not have that much time to think (AP exams, SO nationals, GRADUATION/parties/blah blah blah..).

A part of me just wants to throw in my deposit to UGA without even considering my other schools, room with my best friend, and be happily content for the next four years. But then... what opportunities am I giving up? Am I giving up more than I am getting by choosing UGA? And wouldn't picking a school for it's financial value (UGA is a very good "deal") be taking the easy way out when I can get decent financial aid at other schools? Of course, if UGA was the only one with a good financial package, that would be the end of my worries. Also, I think a big part of me wants to go to UGA (which may, in the end, be my best choice) because I am afraid. Despite my strong desire to leave Georgia and meet new people for the past three years, I think it's finally starting to hit me that this year will be the last time I truly stay at home with my parents and those I have known for years. I feel like if I go to Georgia, as my friend Whitney says, there will be a strong network of friends whom I know and trust (to party at Whitney's, chill at Karen's, and study--thanks guys--at Hope's & Emily's) that I can branch out from without having to start all over again.. I can't believe that is how I feel after all these years. Should I just let myself be a weenie like that??

But if I throw myself out into the open and go to Cornell or Northwestern, I could build a new foundation, putting myself out there to meet new people and become involved in new events. Looking at it this way, it's still hard to pinpoint one college. They all seem to emphasize the same concepts and offer the same classes: Diversity, Balance, Organic Chemistry, English 101. How am I to decide between two equally significant and equally diverses campuses?

Sometimes.. immature and ungrateful that this sounds.. I wish I had just applied to a couple of places so that my decision could be easier. But, progress and growth comes from making tough decisions. Hopefully, I will make the right one.