Results and Some Much Needed Blogging

The final results of college admissions?

Princeton: denied
Stanford: denied
Yale: wait listed
Cornell: accepted

Yay! 1 Ivy! Junki would be proud. Haha! :P

I have to say, I wasn't as sad as I thought I was going to be--not to say that I did not cry or feel upset. I did. I really did. I think a part of me saw this coming. But, in the end, the truth is I did not get in. We did not get in. And, we just have to find ways to deal with that. I cannot really convey my feelings in words right now. I guess a part of me feels numb, and another part of me (oh, I am so ambivalent! :P) does not care at all. But no matter how I feel, I am going to come off disappointed in this post, which I don't think I really am, but who knows.

There are many ways we deal with this.

We cope by changing our perspective, viewing these decisions as fate as a opposed to a lack of ability or substance: we got in where we were supposed to go, and God or fate will take us on the right path. I like to think that this is true, even if I am not particularly religious. I believe things happen for a reason that is not worth analyzing because we will never know why things turn out the way they do... until later in our lives when we realize that something would never have occurred if it was not for that one twist in the idealized journey that we had planned for ourselves in our heads. (Ugh. Note to self: work on writing. What happened?!)

We hold on tight to our friends, shutting ourselves away together when we are supposed to be "studying" but are actually painting and repainting our toenails and dancing to youtube videos.

We accept our futures, feel thankful for all the opportunities we have, and are humbled by our choices, inspired to accomplish much more not letting where we go affect our determination to challenge ourselves and to achieve more than we ever have.

I do not believe that the class of 2009 was a let down. Sure, we all had high hopes and wild dreams, but it isn't over. Just because most of us are going to UGA or Tech does not mean we have to let go of those dreams. Heck, UGA and Tech are amazing schools! I am SO sorry for being so Asian (trust me, I was brought up this shallow when it comes to education). No matter where our options are, we have amazing futures ahead, and I am so thankful to know such smart, hard working (before senioritis hit) people. I love you all despite the rockiness we've all experienced this year. =)

As far as my future? I am weighing Duke and UGA.... and depending on financial aid, I may be able to consider Vanderbilt or Cornell. I don't think I will go to Northwestern, despite the beautiful campus and amazing facilities because it is so far away from home (and super super windy!). It's going to be a really hard choice, and Spring Break may be the most relaxed and tense (such a rare and strange paradox!) week of my life!... but it will all be worth it in the end. I know everything will turn out all right.